Ah. Yeah. This is familiar territory. The gentle patience, the advice, the laying out in words what should have been obvious to him the way it always seems to be for others. So much of Punxsutawney will never know what they did for him. Ossie's words get slotted into the mental filing cabinet neatly between everything else he's ever been told.
He still can't seem to quite stomach the idea for himself. All he did when we was chasing vapid pleasures was screw up the whole routine and hurt people, so he stopped. Trying to do it again is...
"I recommend finding one little desire when you wake up in the morning, and then try and fulfil it if you can. Needn't even be sexual, frankly, sometimes I wake up with cravings of a variety of sources. It's the listening that's the tricky part. Often when we start listening is when we feel we can start speaking again, that some little desire will tip us off to something more substantial. Perhaps I wake up with the desire to have my cock sucked, and eventually I work out that I want Giles to do it, because I like some aspect of it. Or maybe I just want intimacy with someone new, or I don't want to be doing the work for once."
Ossie shrugs.
"And Phil? Give yourself a break, if you can. If we all stepped out of the ocean fully formed in our sexualities, dripping pearls like radiant Aphrodite, the world would look very different. I had awkward, uncomfortable, even regretful encounters. They make up the tapestry of the life I've lived, and point me better towards what I want, yes?"
"Right," he murmurs, nodding. "I mean, I know, I just... yeah. It's just--I need to think about it. I don't think I know what I do or don't want at this point. I guess this is the kind of thing where all you can do is try things out, huh."
Which makes him incredibly nervous, but. What else is there for him to do about this.
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He still can't seem to quite stomach the idea for himself. All he did when we was chasing vapid pleasures was screw up the whole routine and hurt people, so he stopped. Trying to do it again is...
"So--so what would you say? Or do? Recommend?"
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Ossie shrugs.
"And Phil? Give yourself a break, if you can. If we all stepped out of the ocean fully formed in our sexualities, dripping pearls like radiant Aphrodite, the world would look very different. I had awkward, uncomfortable, even regretful encounters. They make up the tapestry of the life I've lived, and point me better towards what I want, yes?"
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Which makes him incredibly nervous, but. What else is there for him to do about this.
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And, immediately, as so Phil doesn't think he's offering his guidance just to crack onto him-
"More coffee?"
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"Yes, if you please."