Worse? Maybe, maybe not. Arthur hasn't shared his own worst, yet. But the fire of Catholic confession has burnt down to embers, and he's left...
...Conflicted. He's in his friend's corner here, because nobody has ever accused him of being unbiased. Other options available could mean anything: hell, dying is technically another option available, but that doesn't make it a realistic one.
He's having trouble with the lack of shame, but then, isn't his own shame bound up less in what he did to Faust than in everything surrounding it? The vicious thrill of finally having a little control over his own fate, however false that control really was, and of hurting somebody who deserved it. The lie he told John, that John then had to pay for.
"What could you have possibly done that was worse." His voice is hoarse and choked. "I broke. After only a month. I broke. I lost."
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Date: 2023-11-10 11:15 am (UTC)...Conflicted. He's in his friend's corner here, because nobody has ever accused him of being unbiased. Other options available could mean anything: hell, dying is technically another option available, but that doesn't make it a realistic one.
He's having trouble with the lack of shame, but then, isn't his own shame bound up less in what he did to Faust than in everything surrounding it? The vicious thrill of finally having a little control over his own fate, however false that control really was, and of hurting somebody who deserved it. The lie he told John, that John then had to pay for.
"What could you have possibly done that was worse." His voice is hoarse and choked. "I broke. After only a month. I broke. I lost."